Im getting close to once again turning into a ranting, gutter mouth, poker hating, moaning bleeder!!!!!!!! One week after the week long self impossed break and im still suffering the same noncence that has blighted my poker playing life for the past 3 months. Using holdemmanager i ran the graph for my hands played last month, i was $21k down, when i run the report showing all in EV (this means it works out how much you should have been up/down had the hands held up at the point the money goes all in-thus its usually the hands that are played for full stacks) i would have been $11k down...............thats a hell of alot of the sklansky green paper!!!!!!! But last month aslo included plenty of poor play from me........about $11ks worth !!!!! So to this month having droped down to  2/4 to try and just get the winning feeling again and limit the loses if i was still taking it up the back side- well thank f**k im only playing 2/4 because once again im the table whore!!!!! The month so far im $5k down..........so lets run the all in EV graph, OMG!!!!!!!! Running the EV graph i go from -$5000 to -$1000 (btw this doent include hands were i bet turn and flop then fold to lucky fish who hit on river!!!!!). You dont need to be a mathmatical genius to spot that i am what is termed as running f**king bad !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Last month i played pretty bad but ran bloody aweful, this month im playing pretty good (i say pretty i found a couple of leaks this morning, mainly floating a little too often and losing 20-50BB with very weak holdings) but im running bloody aweful !!!!!! So what can i do now!!!!! Ive taken the break, ive droped down the levels (5/10 to 2/4) and ive cut the number of tables from 6 to 4 (though in reality the more tables you play well the less the variance), ive talked with my mentor, ive re read the books, ive focused on the positives, ive stayed positive, ive not dwelled on the b*****x and ive not let it keep me awake at night....................but you know what i havnt got to a clue what to do now!!!!!!!  The truth is it cant last (how long have i been saying that??) but at the same time theres no telling when its going to change.................but my god it needs to happen soon.