Good summer hello autum!!! Good by September hello October and please oooooo please good by down swing hello up swing!!! Another new month and another new start, the pain of yesterday already forgotten as the new month gives new hope to a P&L that over the past three months as taken one hell of a beating! Looking for reasons rather than excuses for the past three months as lead to a few home truths:  ive played so donk poker, ive played when i shouldnt have, my game selection as been poor and sadly for the first time in years i tilted. There was of course the sickness of the gods compounding the problem but thats standard, thats the part of the game i have no control over.............the other things i do !! The last week or so i feel ive corrected most of the problems, ive also faced up to the fact that the personal problems ive suffered this year have had a much bigger impact than i cared to admit, which lead to alot of play were i shouldnt have played because my mind and thoughts were elsewhere. As the game gets tougher and tougher being more professional becomes more of an edge- playing when completely focused, finding good tables, playing the "A" game at all times and quiting when you slip to the "B" game- these are all the little things that can mean the diffrence between being a winner and a loser. As it stands im in the losing bracket this year for the first time in my poker life (taking rake into account i actually finish slightly up) so the next couple of months are of great importance, my ego is far to big to have to record a losing year!!!! The mentor side of my badbeat life have also had a big impact on my game. The growth at badbeat over the last 12 months as seen the work loads on the mentors grow and grow as the playing pools grow and the standard of player improves, leading to more and more players playing more and more hour leading to more and more sessions , more and more questions, more and more emails, more and more forum replies........etc etc, put simply the mentoring is now a fulltime job that often involves 60 hour weeks and trying to fit playing hours around that as well as family and friends...............well no wonder the game suffers!!!!!! Yet im not complaining, in-fact totally the opposite- i still think im blessed to be still working in and earning a living from a game im truely in love with! Everyday no matter how sick or long the previous day as been i still wake up looking forward to "work"...............now if thats not the dream job i dont know what is!