I've spent the last couple of week thinking about how I was going to write this blog entry- basically it's the one entry I prayed id never have to make. No matter how much I thought about how to write it it just came back to the same thing- I don't want to write it but I want to write it.
Sadly after the most heartbreak six weeks of our life are beautiful second born Zara Rose died after getting an infection of here bowls. The infection only affects small premature babies but once it does infect its savage- within 24 hour Zara underwent two emergency operations to remove the affected areas but the infection had spread so quickly she had no chance. Fair to say that the day she died a part of us died with her.
We have though been able to take real strength from the amazing love and support we have received from our friends and family- as the saying goes a friend in need is a friend indeed and we have been amazed by just how many real friends with have- to you all we are truly thankful.
Another aspect of all this has been the number of people who have offered there help- if there's anything we can do- well of course in the reality of the situation there's nothing much anyone could do sadly miracles only seem to exist at the poker tables! But then I got thinking and yes there is something you can do! Over the next 12 months i'm going to do something to raise funds for research into the infection that killed my baby- so in the coming months i'm going to be asking for your money please!!
On Tuesday i'm taking the missus and Jade to Greece for a much needed holiday- its time for us to move on and try and get on with our lives obviously Zara will never be forgotten but we cannot mourn forever. On my return I will be returning to my full badbeat duties and the return of the daily blog.
Strangely over the last 2 or 3 weeks i've been playing online as it has been one of the few places I can really lose myself and not have to deal with the real world- poker as been a wonderful escape for me! It's also been a good winning month which I find real weird- but saying that because when i've been playing i've only been thinking about poker i've probably never played as focused! It nearly turned into a very good month when on Saturday night I played the ECOOP event #2 Omaha PL hi/lo. After 8 hours play I finished 5th of 600 runners naturally I lost to a sick beat when my AdAh2d3h lost to AhKh4h7c- when he managed to scoop the pot with a high hand of two pair 7s and ks as there was no low hand!!!!!! To put this into hold um terms imagine someone CALLING a re re raise with 72os against your AA and thinking it's a good play because that's basically what happened! The $5.5k money was ok- but knowing that I was chip leader if I win that hand and the first prize being $26k I was a little disappointed-but not angry- i've kinda got poker in perspective at the moment and getting angry over a game of cards doesn't seem relevant at the moment- but I really do hope that changes over the next few months! Until next week................................................