Don’t know if i should feel happy or if i should be dropping my laptop from a very high building today? It all started soooo well. 07.00am and there’s three tables up and running at 5/10 and there is a couple of serious value players on each- well thats the end of the good news. From this point onwards it was standard April nonsense: I raise with a big hand get called-the flop makes my hand bigger and i bet pot and get called by my fishy friend-turn brings a glimmer of hope to my opponent i bet they call- river brings what looks like a straight or the flush for my opponent so i check call as i can only beat a bluff- and every time they have hit the belly buster straight or runner runner flush and im sat wondering how the fcuk they are still in the pot on the river and how the fcuk ive managed to pay them off?

This happened five or six times and within the space of two hours im a massive SEVEN buy ins down and without question looking at my biggest losing day in a long time. The next four hours or so were spent playing in the same way trying to get my money in in good spots and praying that my hands hold up.

The strange thing is that the turning point was a hand where i got all my money in about as bad as you can get it with QQ v AA all in pre flop. On paper a very over aggressive pre flop play but it was against a player who is willing to go all in pre with a range of hands that go as low as 88 and 10A. From this point onwards i went on a rush where my hands actually held up till id actually got myself one buy in in front- then the inevitable happens and i take another slap losing two massive pots with AQ v JQ on a QQJ board and then AA to a runner runner flush to 75 sooooooooted. 

After taking a break to go to hospital etc i returned for a couple of hours this evening where i completed the come back and finished the day a full $78 up.....................like i say do i laugh or do i cry? Do i take satisfaction from clawing back 7 buy ins or do i cry at the total injustice of the outdraws? Been doing this for four years and i still don’t know!